Writing down some thoughts

I have huge concentration issues which hurt my productivity.

I got some really good ideas in my brain. Like some genuinely great ideas having the potential of being a very successful entrepreneurship idea worth quite a lot. How do I know this? I have seen my ideas turn into reality in the form of startups and companies. I have seen my ideas being the form of unique advice given by the more famous people of this world. But I don't have the will nor the self-confidence to act upon it.

I love writing for some reason.

I have ADHD-like symptoms- my thoughts are very vague-one thought leads to another and I cannot concentrate on a single topic. I am so impatient that I watch videos (even the ones I absolutely need to watch), at 1.5x speed. That’s why I cannot attend live seminars, I watch the video and skim through it to the important parts. I hate having to listen to a person’s lecture. Because I COMPLETELY lose focus after 15min.

But I know I have potential. But that’s all.

On top of that, I have no friends- because I live alone, at home, all day. I should spend more time socializing, but where? how? I don't have any friends from my online college, neither do I have the will to make any. I feel the need to form a circle of like-minded people around me. At the same time, I don’t want to spend energy on creating that circle:).I need to talk to many people to find out the right ones for me, but I think that is a waste of time.But is it?

But I feel like I hate being among people even. I am impatient and don’t have time for useless talk. But I also need more friends, more genuine discussions. But I am impatient among most people. It's hard to decide -whether are the people too dumb for me or am I too impatient?

As I said I skim through videos, and skip to the important parts. It is also because, I like to put a lot of value in a small space-a small piece of text, a small timespan of video. And a lot of times the video I am watching seems like just talking bs, wasting my time. And to be honest, I do watch those videos that have value in every moment, I watch them without skimming. But again, Idk. Sometimes I feel like I am too impatient and it's not the video content that is useless.

Regardless, my Life’s goal is to have to spend the least time Indoors. I want to swim all day. I hate having to study for an exam and all that stuff. I hate being indoors. I want to live a completely free life too, with my time under my control.

But I have another goal that is a bit harder to achieve. It is to find the right type of people for me. I don't believe I can achieve it, but it’s just something I think a person needs, to live a fulfilling life- the right type of people around which they can flourish the most. Who brings the best out of you. I am not saying this in a fairytale way, but I do believe there is this mystical thing called the right person for you, who will elevate you as a person. Is it true? Idk.But I don't believe I will achieve this goal. Do you think I will?